Saturday, 22 July 2017

Moving on....

Since my last post many things have happened and I'm happy to say I was able to submit my exam essay and my photographic exam paper in time for the deadline at LCC.

I waited on the results not knowing what I would receive as it was such a difficult time due to seeing my friend pass away so soon.

One morning I awoke and picked up my iPad and just clicked on my emails and saw a email from the university and instantly I opened it, there was a link enclosed which you had to click on which took you to another page within the University network, I couldn't log in quick enough and when I did I was somewhat amazed and deeply encouraged with a B+ for my photographic exam and a C+ for my essay.  I was happy and content as a few weeks prior I though I'd not be submitting as everything was too much so this is quite amazing considering.

The following week I had a one-to-one with Paul Lowe as to my practical exam the photographic one and he praised my work he loved it and said he'd never seen a story like this before he said he was deeply moved and wanted to see it develop into a bigger body of work.

So I am continuing with this project.  We had a months break from studying and then back to work.
We are now working on a collab project which is basically working alongside someone else and doing a documentary on the subject matter.  Also we are doing another project called 're-think' in which I'm carrying over my "Middle Land" project.

Since starting back on these projects the 're-think' one has been okay but slow moving but the collab one has been difficult.  Very time consuming and at times I feel like it's not going anywhere.  Quite simply I would love to capture sound waves as a deaf person how does sound travel etc and many things that go with how one actually hears.  To make the invisible, visible is something I'd love to explore deeper and to capture sound in motion.  That is my goal so I"m seeking out a Doctor in Physics to do with sound and I"m not sure if that will happen.  I've been in contact with a friend who is a retired surgeon from Glasgow and he's trying to get me access to work alongside someone in that area of research.

I am still waiting.

Moving on into 'The Middle Land'.

It seemed January and February were a blur for myself as not only did I hear my friends cancer had returned but that she actually passed away in February it was a very difficult time for myself and her closest friends along with her family too.

I tried to focus on my work for college but couldn't find the strength to do so.  Everything went quiet my camera sat in its bag untouched for a few weeks it was hard I even began to wonder if I would complete the exams.  It just felt like everything was slipping from my hands.  Until I chatted with two friends who gently encouraged me to finish the exams for Julie and to make her proud of me as she would want me to finish the exams and get the degree.  Although this is only my first year so still have a long way to go yet.

So I began to pick my camera up and my pen too for the essay, time was running past quickly and I had about 3 weeks to submission time.  I had to focus quickly on everything and work my time out as to how I was going to complete the tasks.

I began to dream again of how to tell this story of my life. A place where I live every day.  Many things came to mind as I thought through the course of my life it was exciting to think that I could actually do a self documentary and to tell my story.

I know it's not going to be an easy task but it's exciting to think well if I can make a difference in someones life then it would all be worthwhile.  To tell my story will carry all sorts of feelings and emotions.

I began shooting again with the guidance from my tutor Leonine she was so honest when she saw my work.  It started off with research and that was a big hurdle as I sat for hours looking on the Internet for other people who maybe did a similar project but I hit a brick wall every time.  I contacted The Royal National Institute for the Deaf but nothing from them on that area only leaflets to help people with the disability.  So in the end I realised My story is  my own testimony as I am profoundly deaf.
So I started the project again in which I looked into my own life as a deaf visual artist.

As the days began to slowly pass I kept picking up my camera to capture and to tell my own story as best as I could as a photographer.  The feedback that I received from Leonie during the fortnightly tutorials were very helpful she simply connected with what I was trying to do and she took a deep interest in this work.

A story that I never thought I'd tell,  a story of self in the world in which I lived in since I was a little girl aged 6 years old till now and ongoing.  A story of living in my world not in the hearing world and not in the deaf world but in the middle which I now call the 'Middle Land'.

Welcome to my world I hope you will enjoy the journey seeing things how I see them as an artist who relies on the visual in the everyday things.

Journeying on.

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